The past few weeks have been really hard for me, emotionally and mentally. When I go through tough times, I tend to lash out at the ones who try to help and I push away those closest to me. This time around, I lashed out and tried to push away my mentors. I was struggling and all they wanted to do was help me, but I just wasn’t having it. It took this text from my mentor, Linsey, for me to open my eyes.
My eyes were fixed on everything that was wrong in my life – all the ways I fall short, all the things I don’t have and wish I did, all the goals I haven’t reached, and so much more. I let myself be blinded by all those things again instead of focusing on all the blessings that I do have.
It’s not a secret that I struggle with my self worth. I’ve been in a constant battle with myself for years, letting the weight of wanting to be more, to be where others are, hold me down. But, I always forget who Jesus says I am and what the Lord has done for me.
John 3:16-17 says:
“For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.”
That is how much I’m worth.
In fact, that’s how much everyone is worth.
God sent His one and only Son to die on the cross for our sins. There is no greater love than that.
In a world where we’re taught to always want more, it’s hard to focus on blessings instead of problems. But it’s time that I change that around.
In the spirit of Thanksgiving, I wanted to take Linsey’s advice and make a list of what I’m thankful for.
I’m thankful for…
-The love and grace that God gives me everyday
-My family and friends who have never left me
-The lessons my Mama and Papa have taught me
-My mentors and all that God is doing in and through them
-The talents that I’ve been blessed with
-Being given the chance to go to college
-My job that lets me do what I love for a living
-What God is doing in the next generation
-5 Seconds of Summer
-All I’ve learned through my tough times
-The smiles that my nieces and nephew have when someone makes them laugh
-Being able to see my godson and goddaughter grow
-Sunrises and sunsets
-Friends who call me out on my crap, especially when I need to hear it
-Quality time I get to spend with my family
-Heart to heart conversations
-Long, meaningful hugs after not seeing someone for a long time
-Having a home to go to everyday
-The Flash, Supergirl, and Arrow
-Art and the stress relief it gives me
-Netflix, Hulu, and YouTube
-Sketchbooks, pencils, and micron pens
-All things Disney
-Sushi, street tacos, and churros
-Cheesy, PUNny jokes
–Everything I have but don’t deserve
There are so many things to be thankful for, mostly things we take for granted because we’re too worried about all the things we don’t have. Take the time to reflect on all the blessings in your life, and I promise you’ll start to see how blessed you really are. Big or small, we all have something to be thankful for.
So… What are you thankful for?