Today, (July 7, 2017) is Tell the Truth Day. At first this seemed like a really silly concept to me, but after putting some thought into it, I really like the idea.
So many times, our default responses are lies – whether white lies or big lies, we lie all the time. Sometimes the truth seems so far away because we get so used to dishing out lies. I realized that I tend to lie about even the smallest things, because I’m afraid of what the other person may think if I say the truth.
In honor of today’s holiday, I’m answering a few questions that I (and maybe you, too) lie about. But this time, I promise to be completely honest.
Do you love yourself?
Well… Starting off real light here. Ha.
There are times where I do love myself, but most of the time I don’t. There are so many things about myself that I don’t like, things that I wish I could change, but am too lazy or too comfortable to work for. I try to love myself, I really do, but more often than not, I let the negativity in my head and in this world lead me the other way. Loving yourself with all your flaws, knowing your past, and accepting the things you can’t change is hard. But each and everyday, I try my best to work towards loving myself the way I love others.
What are you afraid of?
Simply put… I am deathly afraid of drowning. But what I’m really afraid of is never getting better. I’ve mentioned before that I struggle with a lot of things, and I’m still on my road to recovery. I’m afraid that I’ll never be able to conquer these struggles and I’ll never get to the part of my life where things get better.
How can you be happy?
This is a tough one. I spent a lot of my life being unhappy. I constantly told myself that if I had a certain thing or reached a certain point, that I would be happy. Then each time I would get the thing I wanted or reach the place I wanted to be, I was still unhappy. What I’ve learned recently, and I know that I’ll have to relearn over and over again, is that happiness comes from the heart. It is a state of mind. Change your mindset, find the good in everything, and choose happiness.
What are you TRULY grateful for?
There are SO MANY things I am grateful for. I am grateful for the love and grace God gives me everyday. I am grateful for my late grandparents. I am grateful for my mom. I am grateful for my friends who have become my family. I am grateful for my mentors who have become my sisters. I am grateful that I am not on this journey alone.
What truth have you been holding back?