2017 Checkpoint

Hi, friends!

We’re just about half way through 2017. Most of us, myself included, have probably forgotten about our new years resolutions… But I wanted to revisit some of mine to see what progress (or lack thereof) I’ve made so far.

Back in January, I wrote this blog post: New Year, New Goals, that explained some of my goals for 2017.

Let’s look back and see what I’ve accomplished so far.

-Create more
More photos, more design, more video, and especially… More writing! Creating new things and working on new projects keeps me sane.

YESSSSS! I have definitely been creating more! If you follow me on Instagram (@melissajoyblogs) you may have noticed all the new projects I’ve done this year. I’ve made stickers and shirts so far… but there are many new things on the way!

-Do something out of my comfort zone
I spend a lot of time in my comfort zone because I’m afraid of failure. I want to be able to move past that and even if I fail, I succeeded at trying.

I’ve stepped out of my comfort zone a few times, but not as much as I want to.

-Keep up with my daily devotionals
When life gets busy, I tend to put my daily devotionals on the back burner. It’s during those busy times that I get frustrated because I distance myself from God. I want to be able to stay grounded in God’s word, regardless of what’s going on in my life.

Keeping up with my daily devotionals has been hard. I still let life get in the way of my time with Jesus, but that’s something I’ve been trying my best to change.

-Eat healthy
I say this every year but I always cave in about a month in. What I mainly want to do is control my portions and cut down on fatty and sugary foods. I also want to try out some vegan recipes. (Thanks to some of my favorite YouTubers for sparking my curiosity in vegan recipes.) I started changing the way I eat about a month ago and it’s been going good so far!

Sadly, what I said in my older blog post is true – I caved in about a month in. BUT! I’ve been definitely making changes in what I eat and when I eat. I’ve cut down on sugary foods, soda, and juice and I try to choose healthier snacks throughout the day.

-Stay on my road to recovery
I began my road to recovery towards the end of 2016. Since then I’ve been fighting with myself about continuing on this path. I’m afraid of what people are saying about me and what other things I might learn about myself. But I know I need to continue on this path, for myself, not anyone else.

This is something that I’m constantly struggling with. When things are going okay, I think I don’t need to keep trying to get better, but I’ve been proven wrong each time. Recently, I’ve opened up more about things I’ve kept to myself for so long, burdens that I’ve carried with me for so many years. I’m blessed to have the people in my life who are there for me and are always willing to listen and help me get back on the right track.

-Learn more about shooting and editing video
I’ve done basic video shooting and editing, but there is still so much more that I want to learn. I hope to start some new video projects this year!

-I haven’t done anything video related in so long. I put that on hold when I started designing and creating other things, but I’m still determined to learn more before the year ends.

-Do more volunteer work
Volunteering at Epic High School ministry has done a lot for me mentally and spiritually. I want to be able to do more volunteer work to give back to others.

-There’s been a little more volunteer work that I’ve been doing, and I’ve been doing more in the ministry that I was already serving in. Recently, I’ve learned that I need to manage my volunteering and make sure that I’m at my best, so I can give my best.

-Pick up a new hobby
Not sure what just yet, but I want to learn about something new. Something that I can share with others.

YES! I’ve been learning how to play the ukulele. When I was younger, I could only play one song, because that’s what I learned in elementary school. I could never play a song and sing at the same time… But I’ve finally learned how! I still have a long way to go, but it’s been fun so far and I’m excited to learn more!

-Cross something off of my bucket list
Big or small, I want to be able to cross something off of my bucket list.

I haven’t crossed anything off… yet. But this September, I will!

-Read more
Reading is something I’ve always loved. I’ve recently got into reading memoirs and poems of those who have suffered with depression and anxiety. It was with the help of those books and I decided to find help and write my own story. I hope to find more books to help my on my road to recovery.

I’ve read about five or six new books this year. I’ve enjoyed each one so far and I’m looking forward to reading more books on my list.

-Acknowledge and deal with my emotions
I tend to repress my feelings and let them build up until they explode. It’s going to be tough, especially since I’ve become so comfortable with living this way, but I know that I need to make this change.

This is an ongoing battle. Sometimes I do it, but most times I don’t. The times that I don’t, I struggle with my emotions and that leads me to struggle in other parts of my life. I’ve been learning about different and healthy ways I can deal with my emotions.

-Change my attitude
It’s always hard for me to keep a positive attitude. Even when times are good, I tend to focus on the bad things, changing my attitude and effecting how I think, talk, and treat others. Too many times I’ve hurt those I love because of my negative attitude. Changing my attitude with better myself, along with the relationships I have with others.

Originally, when I wrote this one, I laughed out loud to myself. I’ve had a bad attitude for so long, I knew I’d have a hard time changing. With the help Lehua, who is now my mentor, I’ve been able to shift my attitude. Lehua calls me out when I say or do certain things that reflect a negative attitude, so that’s been a big push for me to change the way I think, talk, and act. Although I fight her on a lot of the things she calls me out on, I’m thankful that she’s helped me change for the better.

-Make new friends
I always say that I have no friends, jokingly, of course. What I really mean is that the only friends I have in my life are those who have become family to me. It’s tough for me to make new friends because I like to close myself off from others because I’ve been hurt and my trust has been misused so many times. This year, I want to be able to meet new people.

It’s been always been tough for me to get out of my shell and talk to people, but I’ve slowly been learning how to make new friends. I’ve made more friends in the past few months than I have in the past few years. I’m so happy that I’ve learned to connect with more people.

-Get more sleep
My sleeping schedule has been messed up for so long. Late nights turn into early mornings that leave me tired and grumpy for the rest of the day. Even if I won’t be able to get eight hours of sleep every night, I want to be able to get myself back on a normal sleeping schedule.

I can definitely cross this off of my list. Ever since I started working full time, I’ve gotten myself on a strict sleeping schedule. My friends and family have made fun of me for it, but they can say whatever they want, because I know that I need to sleep in order to get through my work day.

-Find the good in every situation
I believe that there’s good and bad in every situation, even though most times we’re only able to see one and not the other. I want to be able to find the good in my dark times, the good that will give me hope that even the darkest of seasons will come to an end.

This has been one of the harder things to do, but it isn’t impossible. Since the year has started, I faced much more hard times than I want to admit, and in each trial, it’s been tough to see the good things. With each trial, I’ve been able to see even the smallest amount of good. I hope that this is something I can continue to do.

-Spend less time on my phone
It annoys me when people are always on their phone when I’m with them, but what I fail to see is that I sometimes do the same thing. Whether it’s texting, reading and answering emails, or even just checking social media, I ignore those in front of me to spend time on my phone. I want to be able to start living in the moment and giving my attention to those who are physically there with me.

I’m proud to say that I’ve been definitely spending less time on my phone. Not sure what the biggest change for me was, but I’ve been able to get through more than a day without having to charge my phone. I’ve been able to actually spend time with those around me instead of staring at my phone.

-Be patient with myself, like I am with others
Patience is something I continuously work on. I’ve found it in myself to be patient with others, especially my family and friends, but I don’t share that same patience with myself. I’m always hard on myself, constantly putting myself down because I think that I’m getting left behind while everyone else keeps going. I need to remember that I need to be patient with myself and stop trying to rush into things.

Just recently I’ve realized that this has been a big problem in my life for so long. I don’t know how to give myself grace, but I have no problem giving others grace. I’m still learning, still trying, to be patient with myself.

What were your goals for 2017?
Have you achieved any of them? If not, you still have time! Don’t give up!

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