I hope 2017 didn’t completely destroy you. If it did, I’m sorry. You’re still here, still alive, still fighting – and for that, I’m proud.
Have you got everything together yet? …No? That’s okay. Stop feeling bad for not being where you think you should be. Things happen in God’s timing, not yours. Just because you aren’t where you thought you’d be or where you want to be, doesn’t mean that you’ll never get there. Keep seeking, keep praying, and God will lead you where He needs you.
I hope that you are continuing to find help. You made a big step at the end of 2016, going into 2017. You broke down the wall that was holding you back and you started your road to recovery. If you’ve stopped seeking help, for whatever reason, please rethink your decision. I want you to get better, to be better. Remember to do this for you, not for anyone else.
Whatever is on your heart right now, whatever is making you feel like you’re carrying the weight of the world on your shoulders, let go. I know how you are. I know that even if life seems the smallest bit of “okay” right now, there’s still something you’re carrying. You tend to continuously pick up the weight of your problems and even the problems of those around you, and hold that weight until you break. I know it’s hard and this is something you know you need to work on, but you need to learn to let go.
Go into 2018 with a fresh mind, but don’t forget everything that 2017 and all the years before has taught you. You’ve fought through and experienced things that so many people would have just given up on. You’re stronger than you give yourself credit for.
Keep fighting. I know you can do this. I believe in you.
(Your 2017 Self)
I printed out this letter, put it in an envelope, sealed it, and put it in a safe place. I plan to open and read this in exactly one year, on January 24, 2018. I’ve set a reminder and alert in my phone’s calendar so I won’t forget.
What would you say to your future self?