I hope you all had a wonderful new year celebration!
As for me, I welcomed 2017 with open arms. 2016 wasn’t that great of a year, so I’m really hoping 2017 comes through, but I know that depends a lot on me.
In hopes of making this a great year, I made a list of resolutions to work towards. I usually don’t share my resolutions with anyone, but this year I wanted to do things a little differently. Resolutions haven’t worked very well for me in the past, I tend to forget about them or quit whenever the going gets tough. Maybe if I put these out there, something or someone in the universe will hold me accountable whenever I feel like giving up.
Here are some of my 2017 resolutions:
More photos, more design, more video, and especially… More writing! Creating new things and working on new projects keeps me sane.
-Do something out of my comfort zone
I spend a lot of time in my comfort zone because I’m afraid of failure. I want to be able to move past that and even if I fail, I succeeded at trying.
-Keep up with my daily devotionals
When life gets busy, I tend to put my daily devotionals on the back burner. It’s during those busy times that I get frustrated because I distance myself from God. I want to be able to stay grounded in God’s word, regardless of what’s going on in my life.
I say this every year but I always cave in about a month in. What I mainly want to do is control my portions and cut down on fatty and sugary foods. I also want to try out some vegan recipes. (Thanks to some of my favorite YouTubers for sparking my curiosity in vegan recipes.) I started changing the way I eat about a month ago and it’s been going good so far!
-Stay on my road to recovery
I began my road to recovery towards the end of 2016. Since then I’ve been fighting with myself about continuing on this path. I’m afraid of what people are saying about me and what other things I might learn about myself. But I know I need to continue on this path, for myself, not anyone else.
-Learn more about shooting and editing video
I’ve done basic video shooting and editing, but there is still so much more that I want to learn. I hope to start some new video projects this year!
-Do more volunteer work
Volunteering at Epic High School ministry has done a lot for me mentally and spiritually. I want to be able to do more volunteer work to give back to others.
-Pick up a new hobby
Not sure what just yet, but I want to learn about something new. Something that I can share with others.
-Cross something off of my bucket list
Big or small, I want to be able to cross something off of my bucket list.
Reading is something I’ve always loved. I’ve recently got into reading memoirs and poems of those who have suffered with depression and anxiety. It was with the help of those books and I decided to find help and write my own story. I hope to find more books to help my on my road to recovery.
-Acknowledge and deal with my emotions
I tend to repress my feelings and let them build up until they explode. It’s going to be tough, especially since I’ve become so comfortable with living this way, but I know that I need to make this change.
-Change my attitude
It’s always hard for me to keep a positive attitude. Even when times are good, I tend to focus on the bad things, changing my attitude and effecting how I think, talk, and treat others. Too many times I’ve hurt those I love because of my negative attitude. Changing my attitude with better myself, along with the relationships I have with others.
-Make new friends
I always say that I have no friends, jokingly, of course. What I really mean is that the only friends I have in my life are those who have become family to me. It’s tough for me to make new friends because I like to close myself off from others because I’ve been hurt and my trust has been misused so many times. This year, I want to be able to meet new people.
-Get more sleep
My sleeping schedule has been messed up for so long. Late nights turn into early mornings that leave me tired and grumpy for the rest of the day. Even if I won’t be able to get eight hours of sleep every night, I want to be able to get myself back on a normal sleeping schedule.
-Find the good in every situation
I believe that there’s good and bad in every situation, even though most times we’re only able to see one and not the other. I want to be able to find the good in my dark times, the good that will give me hope that even the darkest of seasons will come to an end.
-Spend less time on my phone
It annoys me when people are always on their phone when I’m with them, but what I fail to see is that I sometimes do the same thing. Whether it’s texting, reading and answering emails, or even just checking social media, I ignore those in front of me to spend time on my phone. I want to be able to start living in the moment and giving my attention to those who are physically there with me.
-Be patient with myself, like I am with others
Patience is something I continuously work on. I’ve found it in myself to be patient with others, especially my family and friends, but I don’t share that same patience with myself. I’m always hard on myself, constantly putting myself down because I think that I’m getting left behind while everyone else keeps going. I need to remember that I need to be patient with myself and stop trying to rush into things.
Whether I try and fail, or try and succeed at these resolutions, the main thing is that I’m willing to try.
What are your resolutions?
What are you working towards this year?